Regarding the first question, I had always assumed that Ruby meant the choices he made were all him, not due to demon blood clouding his judgement or anything like that.
As for Dean not believing in God - knowing all of the evil in the world, I think that he'd rather believe God doesn't exist than believe that he does and doesn't care enough or is unable to prevent some of the evils he's witnessed.
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Date: 2009-09-19 12:56 am (UTC)As for Dean not believing in God - knowing all of the evil in the world, I think that he'd rather believe God doesn't exist than believe that he does and doesn't care enough or is unable to prevent some of the evils he's witnessed.