Remember when Dean said...

[certainthings]

Dean: You know, when we were little-- you couldn't been more than 5 -- you just started asking questions. How come we didn't have a mom? Why do we always have to move around? Where'd Dad go when he'd take off for days at a time? I remember I begged you-- "Quit asking, Sammy. Man, you don't want to know." [chuckles softly] I just wanted you to be a kid...Just for a little while longer. I always tried to protect you...Keep you safe...Dad didn't even need to tell me. It was just always my responsibility, you know? It's like I had one job... I had one job... [voice breaking] And I screwed it up. I blew it. And for that, I'm sorry. [wiping away the tears] I guess that's what I do. I let down the people I love. I let Dad down. And now I guess I'm just supposed to let you down, too. How can I? How am I supposed to live with that? [crying] What am I supposed to do? Sammy. God. [sniffles] What am I supposed to do? [inhales sharply] What am I supposed to do?!

Comments

[bigmamag.livejournal.com]

I've been thinking a lot about how they've been really bashing John this year, and I came to a positive conclusion: I think it's a natural way of letting go and agree with how they're doing it thus far.

See, after he died, Dean was mad at him for selling his soul and couldn't even speak at all about his father. That entire year was Dean holding shit in, and not speaking so ill of the dead because, after all, what can you say about a poor man who's in hell? Talk about speaking ill of the dead! Now that John's not in hell and Dean's going there, Dean's almost allowed to be a bit bitter, especially as he's been bottling shit up and has only exploded in this one episode. I think we get little reminders that John wasn't the worst dad on the planet, sometimes from the sons but especially from other characters, like when Bobby or some other minor character tells them that "Your daddy raised you right." So yeah, John made mistakes and he's not exactly daddy-of-the-year, but I think the boys will see him in a more positive light if they can get Dean out of this deal and get all the nasty daddy issues out and in the open.

[certainthings.livejournal.com]

Ooh. I like those thinky thoughts.