I think maybe John told him to take care of Sammy so much, not because Dean needed reminding or because he was forcing that role onto Dean, but because...his world had just gotten thrown apart and he launched into a new, scary one with two small kids and unbearable grief and confusion. He was trying to keep everyone safe, while trying to track down the YED, while trying to keep the random person safe from the bad things in the dark.
So yeah, he relied on Dean to look after Sam. I don't think there was anything else he could have done.
Dean's self-esteem issues make me want to wrap him up in blankets and warm feelings. But also the more I think about it? The more I wonder what could have happened differently during Dean's life so that he'd have higher self-esteem. Maybe if John had kept Dean in the dark as he did with Sam, even for a little bit longer.
But...I don't think the Winchesters would have survived had that happened.
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Date: 2008-02-10 03:42 am (UTC)I think maybe John told him to take care of Sammy so much, not because Dean needed reminding or because he was forcing that role onto Dean, but because...his world had just gotten thrown apart and he launched into a new, scary one with two small kids and unbearable grief and confusion. He was trying to keep everyone safe, while trying to track down the YED, while trying to keep the random person safe from the bad things in the dark.
So yeah, he relied on Dean to look after Sam. I don't think there was anything else he could have done.
Dean's self-esteem issues make me want to wrap him up in blankets and warm feelings. But also the more I think about it? The more I wonder what could have happened differently during Dean's life so that he'd have higher self-esteem. Maybe if John had kept Dean in the dark as he did with Sam, even for a little bit longer.
But...I don't think the Winchesters would have survived had that happened.
Oh, boys.
I rambled. Sorry!